I’ve finally got off my arse to get myself in shape, or at least try to. I fucked my leg up last year when I last tried to get fit - dislocated knee, double fracture and torn ligament - and ended up in a full brace for months so I wasn’t able to exercise. But even when that came off and I completed rehab physio I let myself go down the route of eating excessively and poorly, drinking way too much and letting my declining mental health keep me away from even attempting exercise.
I’ve piled the beef on and for a good 7-8 months have probably been living a deceptive life; I’m still going out, seeing friends and work’s keeping me busy but at home I’m a mess. Pretty much as soon I was getting in from work I was going to bed in a depressive heap but as my anxiety was keeping my brain too active, I’d end up necking a couple of bottles of wine just to knock me out. Then I’d wake up, hate myself for it and the daily cycle started again.
It took a bit of a kick up the arse from a good friend a few weeks ago to make me look at myself and do something to stop the cycle. I’ve been for a couple of runs to see how my knee/leg held up and it felt a bit sore, but instead of driving to Dundee in my bare feet, I signed up for a Personal Trainer. Not that I’m incapable of doing fitness stuff on my own, but I thought having someone to drive me and give me proper advice would keep me motivated, as well as being accountable to someone who knows what they’re doing.
I’m doing two sessions a week and so far they’ve been intense, but she’s helping me focus on my core strength and ensure my leg’s fully ready for some improvement. We’re doing boxing tomorrow to focus on the upper body then over the next month or so, she’s going to help tailor a routine I can then take home and follow without her direction.
I’ve also signed up for the gym in my building; I’m hoping the training will encourage me to go there as well, for swimming, running and cycling especially.
Like others have just said, this will all be useless if I keep eating like Mr. Creosote and drinking myself to sleep, but the positive mental state the sessions have put me in so far are encouraging and I’ve now got some clear goals in sight.
I’ve not made enough physical progress to mention, but like with the PT being involved, I wanted to put it in here so there are other people aware of my attempts as that’ll be another motivator to hopefully make as much improvement as others in here.