Slapnut

Been here for almost 3 months now and whilst I'm generally pretty happy with a number of things, there are certain elements that I'm not happy with and making me feel like a bit of an idiot. I feel like I'm making a lot of mistakes, but I think they're largely the result of things not being explained to me clearly. It's a very small company - about 15 staff in total - and I think they take for granted that I'll know things that I don't. I don't have a manager per se (which is weird, I know) but I work closely with the tech lead who is very good at her job and a wealth of knowledge, but is incredibly poor at explaining things and can be super vague when asking for things to be done. As an example, she was on annual leave at the end of last week and in her handover asked for a piece of work to be done "if it comes in". This isn't a piece of work I'm familiar with and she'd already left before sending her handover, but I figured I'd give it a go if it came in and put out a call for help if needed. Anyway, as far as I could tell, the work never arrived. Upon her return this morning she was asking why this piece of work wasn't done in such vague terms that it genuinely took me a few minutes to figure out what she was talking about. Anyway, as it turns out, the piece of work did come in, but I wasn't included in the email chain and nobody forwarded it to me. She was in a huff for about two hours after and I still don't know if I've fucked up or if she's being a bit unreasonable and it makes me feel like shit. The other thing that was flagged to me this morning - and I'll hold my hands up and say in hindsight I should have been a bit more cautious here - but on Friday the big boss asked for a password to a machine in the group chat, which I gave him. Apparently this was a big fucking no no and now they have to change all the passwords. To clarify, I know under most circumstances you shouldn't be sharing passwords in group chats, but this particular password is used to unlock every single computer in the entire company, not just one specific computer that contains sensitive material. We give it to clients all the time. Also, it's such a pathetically weak password that if it were my UKFF password it would be S1apnut. My point being nobody has ever explicitly told me not to put that password in the group chat, especially when the big boss asks for it, but I do feel like a bit of an idiot in hindsight for not at least questioning whether I should post it, and makes me wonder if I should have used a bit more common sense in the first example. I also constantly feel like everybody else has their own little project, but my only work comes from when people ask me to do something. I hardly ever come into work having work there waiting for me, I'm always having to ask others if they need help with anything, and I feel like a bit of a spare part. It means I spend a fair chunk of time doing fuck all which I'm worried makes me look like a lazy bastard, especially when it turns out work hasn't been completed. Apologies for the mildly coherent ramblings. I've been stewing on this all day and feeling proper down about it. I was always considered one of the better staff members at my last place - people frequently told me they were relieved to see my name on a piece of work - so I'm just quite down about it all.

For me, Test is the most egregious example of TNA bringing in an ex-WWE guy for a week or two before fucking him off. Came in after 7 years of doing absolutely fuck all of note, was immediately put in a main event angle with the likes of Sting and AJ Styles with virtually no history with anybody involved, and then disappeared after one match. Christ, even Rikishi lasted over a month.