Thank you Keith, I used to be massively into my artwork, but I just don't have the energy or the mental power to do it just now. If I end up alone, I guess I'll try to prioritise it again. I have tried to make walking my focus (I'm too unfit to resume cycling and my knees are knackered beyond running), I've done a few multi hour walks over the last month or so, but you know, with having the kids, and with the partner constantly wanting to escape out of the house, its difficult for me to find a consistent rhythm with it.. I'm going to ask my GP for some more time off work tomorrow. Once the family go back to school / work, I really hope I can use this time to begin physically moving around again. Thank you so much for taking the time to reply. It means the world to me.
Edit - I got a prescription for pregabalin today, does anyone have experience with this medicine, or had success with it? Also, I've booked an appointment with a local mental health organisation for later this week. I'm hoping they can teach some techniques for calmness and acceptance.